MiSsInG...

After so long, finally, i found the mood to write something here again. Again, I MISS HOME.
Due to final exam, i've decided to stay in hostel for three weeks without going back, the purpose, to study, study and study. But unlike last time, i can't manage to concentrate much in my studies. maybe it is because of the changes in environment, and probably it is because my laptop is tempting me every second every minute whenever i sit down infront of my study table preparing to tackle down each and everyone of my syllabus. During this period of time i'll be in the world of books, where all i can see is book, talk book, and probably listen book, but for this sem, something changed me. I have become more relax when it comes to exam. Somehow, the answer is within me, why did this happen, but i can't admit it loud and clear because this is the path i choose. Maybe everything seems perfect now, but deep down in my heart, it might not be wat i wanted. but wat can i do...? I've come this far... i can't give up now and waste everyone's effort rite? How i wish, my heart is as tough as steel, but no... i need to think about others too. I'm tired of striving for the best in exams, i've miss so many things along the way. In a way, exam is a waste of time, because it stop you from doing the most important thing, such as being with ur family.
It wouldn't be exaggerating to say that, due to exam i've become emotionless. All i do is reading from a book, wat emotion can i get? Well, probably a worried look whenever there is something i dun understand or i dun seem to remember. And it affects my reading behaviour for the rest of the day, in which i might not be able to concentrate on other subjects.
But nevertheless, no matter wat results i've achieved, i've done my best, and there is nothing i can change anymore. So gambateh and all the best!!!

iNdEpEnDaNt

The first step into college is equivalent to the first step of independent. And all these while, everyone thought that it was great that i finally could be independant. Although i dun admit dat i'm 100% independant, but at least i have achieved already 50 % of it, and it is consider as a big leap for me. From being a person who don't know how to wash clothes, a spoil brat that don't have to clean her own room or tidy her bed after she sleep, i can say that i've changed. Although being independant is a good trait but somehow people can get tired of being independant.
Maybe there are some of you out there that do not agree with me. But honestly, i hate being independant always. If everyone is able to be independant, then the word dependant wouldn't have been introduced at all. Sometimes, people need to depend on other people. I need to depend on someone too. But, whenever i look around, i'm alone. I'm not whining on cleaning the room or anything, it's just sometime, my heart feel tired too... and i really want to depend on some. I'm human too u know...
I'm tired of being always independant...let alone, most of the time being independant means that you dun need anyone and that you will be alone, and being a libra it's hard to cope with lonliness. Being independant somehow shows that you dun need other people to understand you, you are fine by urself, and you are better off without anybody. And somehow, people around you will think the same thing too, and will tend to mix around with you lesser. Hence, how can all these be good? Maybe others perception towards independent differs from mine, and some might not agree with what i say here, but this is how i feel. I wish there was someone there who could let me depend on...Rather than the way around... People depend on me... but who can i depend on? Can anyone give me answers...?
If i had a chance, i really hope that time could go back and change who i am now... not being an independant person....

MeiLiniZation?

MeiLiniZation...
Definitely not a big word you will encounter in your studies
It's just something that my friends came up with to generalize all my funny gestures...
That's the best i can come up with...will share with you guys later the details of it, or maybe my friends can provide a better example than me
2 am in the morning and there's nothing left for me to do than staring at my laptop deciding what can i do next...so i decided to take a look at my friends blogs...well at least it involve doing something, so i decide to create my own blog too...and live my life as a blogger XD (hopefully it'll last long enough)
All my friends blog. Well, at least most of them. I'm really curious what was the attraction there since one of my friend would rather blog than to chat with me! You know who you are XD! Hence, i've decided to give it a try and find out the answer for myself. Reading other people's blog might be fun, but when it comes to writing... blank. It is harder than coming out with a 1000 word assignment due to we will be pouring out our thoughts to people that you might not know. But nonetheless, there is always exception and changes, i guess by blogging, it somehow help you to enhance your confidence and somehow it allows us to share. LOL, getting late and i'm talking crap. I better end here before i starts to give lecture like a lecturer XD.
But to all my bloggers friends, yoroshikun ^^, i'm stepping into your lifestyle now, wakaka you'll be seeing me around now. XD just hope that my affection towards it don't die off
-signing out. MeiLin